Intense humility and vulnerability report. My feelings have been under great attack this morning, but it's such an intensely great reminder. I was feeling defeated, destroyed, helpless, hopeless, and like a victim for an entire 30 minutes. I felt no peace. I allowed the lies of the enemy to veil me from my Daddy's presence for an entire half an hour! It was the most miserable half hour of the past 2 1\4 years of my born again life! The reason I'm sharing this is to strengthen the Church and stomp the enemy! The Truth.... I haven't been defeated! I am more than a conqueror! I'm not helpless.... My Help never leaves me or forsakes me! I'm not destroyed... I'm empowered! I'm definitely not hopeless.... The Hope of the world lives inside of me! When I took my eyes off of God's face and focused on myself (fear, pain, uncertainty), I began to sink... quickly! There is no room in this life for that nonsense! I must always keep my eyes on Him and His promises! I must always live by faith and not by sight! I can't afford, for even a moment to let what I see become a greater reality than Him! His promises for Marvin and I are so much bigger than what I can see with my earthly eyes right now! I've seen ridiculous evidence of that already in the very short time we've had together so far! How could I possibly believe the lies of this world over the greater Truth that I have stored up for me? We have to keep our focus, Church! We can't afford to allow our minds to be set on the things of this world at the cost of Truth! We must always keep our minds set on things above, where we're seated with Christ Jesus! We can't afford to turn our thoughts inward at the cost of relationship with the One who holds us together in the palm of His hand! Be strengthened, Church! Be encouraged! Every plan He has for us is better than we could ever possibly think, dream, or imagine! We must actively pursue the Giver! Never give in to the illusion that you are destined for anything but greatness! Never allow yourself to be victimized by deceit! The wisdom of this world is sensual and destructive! Keeping busy in times of trial may seem like a good idea... keeping your mind too busy to think about what's happening, but that's the furthest thing from the Truth! The way that seems right to man leads to death! Spiritual, mental, emotional, and even physical death! In the midst of trial we need to stop everything and get alone with Him! We need to allow Him to be our focus, so that we're able to stay focused! I'm not saying forsake all responsibility when disaster strikes! That's the furthest thing from what I'm saying! If it's a work day, don't busy yourself with mindless distractive work, but rather keep your thoughts on Him and stay in communion while you complete your tasks! If you're a stay at home parent and the kids are around, don't lock yourself in your room leaving them to tend to themselves, but rather take every opportunity to care for them! In doing so, you will be behaving exactly like our Savior, while keeping your mind focused on Him! When you do have moments of downtime, get alone with Him! Get all of your focus solely on Him, and be renewed! We're in a war, Church! Take every opportunity to get the training and preparation you need! Soldiers in the armed forces don't distract themselves with busyness or leisure in the short down times between battles...they train! We need to do the same! Strap on your armor! Receive your instruction! Be strengthened! Be prepared! Be overwhelmed by confidence and peace! And... Run with me Church! Www.purusamor.com

No Compromise

It was three years ago, when I first came into true relationship with my Daddy God, that Holy Spirit spoke these words to me,

 "I made you to be a warrior! All the traits in you that the enemy once used for destruction were put in place by Me, for kingdom glory! I'm redeeming them today! You will not back down! You will not make people comfortable at the cost of Truth that sets them free!" 

Honestly, I was a little intimidated by that calling! I had, up until the day He encountered me on the floor of that Lexington sanctuary, been all about the approval of man. If I couldn't somehow finagle you into liking me, I'd make sure that you hated me. That's a huge difference from my new heart that loves everyone with all of my being, and would lay my life down for each and every single person! Often times, laying my life down looks like saying and doing things that make people really uncomfortable. Sometimes it even makes people angry. That's ok, because my life MUST be lived from a place of perfect peace WITHIN my Father! I can not afford to make people comfortable at the cost of His Truth and reality! I can't afford to let you die when I know life! I love you too much!

A while back, I had posted a status on my Facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/amber.sloan.missionary.for.christ) 

that provoked comments that could be very controversial. My post read...
"Why does it seem so much easier for people to put their faith in a pharmacist they've never met, to give them prescription drugs that will heal rather than kill them, than it is for people to trust their Father and Creator to heal them? Selah."
A comment that was made by a dearly loved friend was in regards to those who have not seen their healing manifest, "needing" prescription drugs to bring relief. After posting my response, I was both surprised and troubled! This is a topic that can cause mass controversy, and I had tiptoed around it trying to be safe and not offend anyone. Holy Spirit immediately convicted me," Would you be comfortable being accepted, at the cost of the Truth that sets people free?"  In response to His question, NEVER! I believe that was a turning point for me. If I truly love you, I will not let you live in a lie, without at least attempting to show you greater Truth! The real Truth is, I don't believe anybody EVER needs prescription drugs. Or EVER needs over the counter drugs! And let's just go ahead and throw in the fact that nobody EVER needs illegal drugs!

Here's where the lie comes in...

The enemy has come to steal, kill, and destroy!

First he steals your faith in the finished work of the cross. 

Then, he kills your defenses by ushering in people, places, and things to put your trust in that will NEVER bring relief like Jesus does! 

Lastly, he destroys your life (mind and body), resulting in physical, spiritual, emotional, and mental anguish leading to death. 

On the cross Jesus said, "It is finished!", and He meant it! 

IF we truly believe that He took our pain upon Himself so that we could be healed, THEN we can live in a place of divine health! I personally have only had pain reliever once in the entire three years since I gave God my life, and that was for the c-section birth of my son, Judah! Other than that, for the past 3 years, I have not taken a single pain reliever, antibiotic, antihistamine, cold suppressant...anything!!! And the ONLY reason I took pain reliever at the c-section is because the hospital is filled with beautiful, good meaning, kind hearted, text book brain washed drug pushers that administer drugs without permission or convince you that you have no choice.

But we do have a choice! We can choose to believe everything that the bible says, without compromise, even if/when our physical reality isn't lining up. 

I HAVE been sick a few times in these past 3 years. One time it was as if I was on the verge of death, and onlookers were terrified for my well being! I still chose to believe His Truth! I chose to stand on His promises believing that I can't get sick, NOR can I die! I have nothing to fear! I chose to take that time of extreme pain and illness as an opportunity to spend time soaking in His presence, while laughing at the devil for his failure! You see, all getting me sick does, is give me more time to rest in my Daddy's arms and get to know Him better! I can't do that if I'm so focused on myself (my health, my pain, my responsibilities, etc), or doped up on drugs that numb me up or knock me out! He is the ONLY drug I need, and THAT IS the gospel!

Run with me Church!

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