WRECKED

The Lord has been absolutely wrecking my heart the last couple of days. His love overwhelms me! I don't know how to do anything but love Him now. I can't help but manifest Him everywhere I go. This thing is no joke! I will forever be changed, and this is only getting "worse"! People try to slander me, they try to argue with me, they persecute me in every known way. My only response is, "God I love them so much! Please forgive them Lord! If they knew who they were they wouldn't be acting this way! I know because I used to be just like them. Lord reveal Yourself to them in a miraculous way. Bless them like they have never been blessed before....." I don't know how to be mad. I don't know how to be stressed out, or depressed, or how to have a bad day! The Spirit of the Living God lives inside of me!!! The same Spirit that raised Christ from the dead!!! He shows me the greatness of His being every moment of every day! There isn't a day that passes that I don't feel His love and power inside of me. Man...you guys this thing is so real! It is so much bigger than we have ever dreamed it could be! God revealed to my children and I that He is going to change this country through us obediently walking in His Spirit! Do you have any idea what that does to a single mom who had struggled 15+ years with addictions, depression, and anxiety? I have given over complete control of my life to Him, and He has completely changed me! He told my kids this morning that praying for people for healing is only the beginning! He is going to use us to open blind eyes, open deaf ears, make the lame walk, and raise the dead!!! I know the Word says it, and I know that I believe it, but oh man.... do you know what this does to a person? I am a wreck right now! God began revealing more of His plan to me last night and I was filled with so many mixed emotions. I was excited beyond belief and completely terrified at the exact same time. His response was "Trust Me!" I DO LORD....I DO!!! I TRUST YOU AND I LOVE YOU AND I GIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE TO YOU!!! USE ME, MOLD ME, SHAPE ME, PRUNE ME......SEND ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even as I type this I have to keep stopping to dry the waterfall coming from my face! Who would have ever thought that I could be someone great? My Daddy God, that's who! That's why He sent His Son in my place...to reconcile me back to who He created me to be! I was destined for greatness since the creation of the world! It just took me a long time to see it. Thank you Lord for being patient with me! Thank you for pursuing me when I was running away! Thank you for smiling at me when I spit in Your face! Thank you for believing in me!!!!!!!!!!!!